I miss my tumblr so much.
I’ve been trying so hard to quit smoking, I really have. Last week I was very good about tallying my arm for each cigarette I smoked, and this week I have been trying to distract myself whenever I get a craving. I think my attempts at quitting have reaffirmed that I most definitely need to give it up, because I really am addicted. The thought of ‘needing’ or ‘depending’ on something as silly and worthless as a cigarette is very frightening to me, and I don’t want that life. I need to gain more discipline.
Jesus, what makes me think even for a second that I’m ready to date someone….God. I’m so far from coming anywhere close to caring for another human being romantically, even the slight thought of it scares the living shit out of me.
People come into the place I am currently working like they own it. Getting angry and hostile because we don’t have enough cookies for them to shove down their edacious little throats. I mean…how fucking sad is it that a person can scream at someone because their favorite cookie hasn’t been baked. What is wrong with this world? Lazy people, sitting in their booths and chairs, stuffing their faces with overpriced, calorie filled deli favorites, guzzling their soft drinks, talking loud and aggressively about obnoxious co-workers and flashy cars and big homes and dream vacations and trying to gain sympothy because their stupid fucking children have a cold or their husbands don’t give them enough attention or they aren’t appreciated by their bosses, SHUT THE FUCK UP. People take their sad pathetic lives out on innocent workers who probably have it a lot worse, and all we can do is smile and listen to their ‘woe is me’ act, hour upon hour, day by day. They walk around as if their kings in their castles, bossing around their “servents” for the measly 30 minute lunch break they have allotted to them. Well I say to you, GO SOME PLACE ELSE YOU MOTHERFUCKERS….and have a great afternoon you shitheads.